A little More Background

I mentioned before that after I had my oldest daughter I avoided church. I think I had so much shame and trauma from having a child while still being a child myself that it was too painful to hear the messages that church had to offer. My parents had such strong feelings of disappointment that I thought the church would have them also. Over the years my family and friends have tried to get me to attend church and bible study, I was still so stuck in my shame that I always declined. If this sounds like you then I’m sure you are familiar with “I just haven’t found the right church for me”, “I am too shy for bible study”, excuse, excuse, excuse. I think the two main issues were my shame and not wanting to be judged.

We often feel unworthy to approach God and have the loving and intimate relationship that He wants us to have with him! Shame prevents us from intimacy with God because it makes us feel unworthy and distant from Him.

Hebrews 10:22, "Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience, and our bodies washed with pure water."

God wants us to draw near to Him with a clean conscience that has been freed from dead works!

Women are more affected by shame then men. We often feel that we don’t measure up and are never good enough even for God. We as women have these feeling more often because of the curse / consequences given down from the falling of Eve.

 

There are two things we need to remember Romans 8:1 -There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. And we have been given grace. I will touch more on grace in my next post till then… May God keep you and bless you. Rest in his love for he enough…and so are we!

 

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A little Background - And Welcome

I want to start this wonderful journey of a blog by giving you a little background about me and my family. My mom was raised in the United Pentecostal Church / Apostolic (UPC) and all of her family was in “the group” and most still are. She met my dad through one of her brothers and so the relationship began. After my parents were married my dad decided to go to Christian Bible School with the goal of being a UPC pastor. This was all before I was born. When I was 1 my parents decided that the churches views were too focused on outward appearances and what you needed to do to prove yourself as holy. They attended a Grace based Christian church and felt liberated; they finally found a place where the teachings of the church matched their beliefs about the teachings of the Bible.

My early experiences with religion and church were split between my parents and the Christian church and time spent with my grandparents (my mom’s parents) attending UPC church. In my preteen years I continued to attend church with my parents and whet to Christian summer camp. It wasn’t until my teen years that I began to rebel and not go to church.

I had my oldest daughter when I was 15 and after that I kind of avoided church. My husband and I got engaged when I was 18, did our premarital Christian counseling and were married in 2004. My husband’s family is all catholic and so he was raised catholic. My husband and I never really talked about religion, our views, or what we could teach our children about faith/religion until after we married.

In the past few years I have felt the pull to re-engage in my faith. I started asking my husband what he thought about finding and joining a church. Did he want us / our family to be Catholic or Christian. The answer has always been the same “I don’t care, either way” and “I don’t mind going to church, but I don’t agree with what they say / teach.” So my daughter started going to youth group at a local Christian church and I started doing my own private bible study alone.

And now here is a little about my own family. I’m Lindsy a stay at home mom, my husband Chad works for an oil company, our oldest daughter is 14 and our youngest daughter is 3. We were born and raised in Northern California where we currently live.

So that brings us to the present. The purpose of this blog is to share my journey of faith, personal relationship with God, and my family’s journey along the way. I in no way have in depth knowledge about Christianity or the “correct” way to have faith or a relationship with God. This is just my personal experiences and ways of thinking. I hope that you enjoy this blog and engage through comments and personal emails. We all have room to grow and I look forward to growing with you through this blog.